Beer tastes like crap.

it's 3.57 am.

i'm chugging down my 1st bottle right now. it's carlsberg ice beer. i wanted to just get a 6 pack or something. but there wasn't any there at the 7-eleven. i grabbed 3 bottles of carlsberg ice beer simply because they were at eye level and within reach.

and beer tastes like crap.

but here i am - just parked outside my house less than 5 minutes ago - and i've already finished my 1st bottle. in fact, dropping the last few drops now. head is already feeling slightly heavy. i'm not drunk. nope. wish i had the money to buy enough beer to get drunk right now. but nope, only had enough to buy 3 bottles. not the big ones either - just the standard 325ml ones.

i'm just hoping that if i chug them down quickly - then i'd get high.

gosh - feel like crap now - but i can still type - looks like spending money on the 3 beers has been a waste of good money. feel like crying. but nothing's coming out. i'm only halfway through my 2nd bottle now. well - kinda. maybe by the 3rd one - i'll start bawling. who knows? i remember once - all i had was one fucking bottle of carl's reserve and i started to burst like a fucking damn. maybe that's it - maybe i need another carl's reserve.

fuck it. i'm not going out for more beer. shit - it tastes like crap.

but i'm feeling it a little more now. excellent. i'm not drunk yet. i won't get drunk. not with just a measely 3 freakin bottles. but it'll have to do.

i can't seem to bring myself to chug down the last half of my 2nd bottle. i'm no drinker. never was. fucking beer tastes like shit. ah wht the hell -

ahhhh... one more freaking quarter left of my 2nd bottle. then i'll move on to the 3rd bottle. then i won't be drunk. but maybe i'll be high enough to cry? do i need to cry? maybe i'll be high enough to not think? maybe i'll be high enough to not care anymore. yeah...maybe that will happen. wtf am i doing? why am i even typing this shit out?

who the fuck careS? i'll finish the last quarter of the 2nd bottle now...

took me a good minute or 3 but i finished the last quarter of my 2nd bottle. head heavier now. not drunk - but having to type a single word a few times before i get it right. hey ... guess tht means its working. dont feel like crying yet though. maybe the 3rd bottle will get me there.

i was actually considering keeping the 3rd bottle for a rainy day. but wht the hell...i'm gonna finish it now.

fuck - spilt a little bit. gimme a sec. i get some tissue.


holy shit - i just caught a glimpse of myself in the mirror - i'm as red as freaking christmas tree...or i think more like red like christmas tree lights...haha...you know wht i freaking mean.

shit - beer tastes like crap! i'm not even halfway through my 3rd bottle yet. wht a freaking useless drinker. haha. but my head is feeling more heavy now. i still don't feel like crying. well - guess the beer isn't helping then. oh well.

i just forced myself to drink till there's only half left. i usually don't drink beer this fast. i wonder if i'll end up puking. i've never puked cause of drinking before. me being the dependable fucker who doesn't get too drunk. who never gets too drunk. the guy who's never puked because of drnking before. i think the last time i puked was probably 5 yrs ago - and i was really really sick then. docs thought i had freaking denggi. almost got admitted too. then they told me tht i jsut had a really high fever.

maybe i should just delete this entry? ah what the hell - i'm never foolish - lets be foolish for once. why not right?

friends .... those of you reading this...you';re gonna feel compelled to call me...to leave a coomment...to send me an email....

let me pls ask this of you - and pls honour this request.

DOn't.

just read this and know tht at one point in time - ie at this time - i feel like crap. and its ok ... whts life if you never feel crap every now and again. it ain't all flowers and daisies right? and relatively speaking ... i guess i've had it good. i mean. yeah i guess i've had it good. there's always something to complain about. but i wont. now now.

oh wow...i'm really getting a little high now. chugging this shit down is getting me there.

fuck - everytime i chug down a few gulps - i feel like i'm gonna puke. i'm really fucking gulping this crap down. it's freaking 4.24 am now. i'm gonna finish this 3rd bottle and just go to bed. iu still don't feel like crying at all. i was hoping the beer would help. oh well.

its weird - just a while ago - i was floating on air. now i'm trying to get high enough to cry.

argh! i keep on pressing the start button. there i go agiamn.

i notice the wrong spelling - nbut i'm not gonna fix ttht. just so tht the nexyt time i come online and read this - i can know tht i was really fucked up when i wrote this.

there's about just a little more than a quarter left, my stomache is startign to feel a little funny. but no....i'm gonna finish it.

i just went to look myself in the mirror - i look quite scary. getting high woint change anything. i'll still feel like crap tomorrow. lets jsut hoipe that this doesnt become a ritual.

hahha;....shit ... i just slid off the chair..

there's just less than a quarter left. i tried to finish it. but i couldnt. beer tastes like crap.
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thank god i dont have class tomorrow.

hey...i'll sign into msn... haha...there's noone i'd like to talk to on my list right now. so i'll just leave it...

fuck....just one or 2 more small chugs left. then i'll be done. maybe i should have just stayed at 2 bottles.

man...i'm really red now. this is so stupid. why am i doign this ?


great. i' ve finished it./



ok. i'm out.

signing off --- the fucking common jack a,pmgst thje kings and queens.../