still wish you were dead?

it's 8.25 pm.

i guess - at this age - we are fast approaching that time in our lives where we all feel a little bummed somehow. it's inevitable. i mean - when i was a kid (kid meaning below the age of 18) - i used to look at the lives my older brothers had or just older friends and it looked so exciting. it looked so much more inviting than going to school for the better part of the day and studying for exams.

mobility would improve as you get your driving license. and the license is like a key to a whole new realm of possibilities. now, going to town wouldn't be a chore that involved a full weeks worth of planning beforehand - i can just pick up and leave if i really wanted / needed to. that's huge.

then, there was always more money - (well, it looked like the older people always had more money) - there were women, meeting new people, sex...i mean - wow. i couldn't wait.

but then we all get here. and then we get bummed. because of all that promise of how cool it would be to be a grown up just doesn't play up to what it is realistically - life is realistically depressing that way innit?

so you start feeling depressed and start looking for something new to look forward to. we all try to find something that gives us the same buzz the 'promise of how cool it would be to be a grown up used to give to us'. it's like a drug and we're all addicted to this one.

however, of course shit doesn't work out a lot because - well - that's just the way it is. and then we start getting depressed and we start saying shit like, "I wish I was dead."

now - there are many responses to that phrase. the most cliched stuff like - "there's always someone who's got it worse", "the grass is always greener on the other side", "life is a wondrous gift..." etc.

as true of false - up to you to decide - these cliched statements are... i get tired of hearing these things being said sometimes. when someone says stuff like that to me, i fight the urge to say, "DUH! - i know that shite!" ...

recently, i watched a crap movie where the same stuff is said but put forward differently ... (btw, this is the whole point of this blog entry...enjoy.)

THE SETTING:
woman is depressed over her sister's tragic murder. she meets sister's boyfriend who knows what happened to the sister.

they go to the site of the murder and woman starts to sob and says, "god, i wish i were dead! WAA!!!"

dead sis's boyfriend says, "you don't mean that. think about your sister..."

woman says, "NO! NO! i don't care...i just want to lay down here and die! WAAA!!!"

dead sis's boyfriend says, "you know what? you need to hear this. she(dead sis) was brought here. right to this very spot. she was brought here in a car kicking and screaming. she was surrounded by 4 men. here is where they hit her, raped her and then stabbed her 53 times when she didn't just lay down and took it.

she clawed at them. she slapped them. she struggled and even shot one of them in the foot with one of their guns. she screamed in their faces. she gave them scars. she kicked and hit back whenever she could. she gave it all till she couldn't give anything anymore. even when she was being stabbed. she continued to struggle. she didn't stop until her body gave out on her.

she did all this because this life(any life) is worth fighting for. no matter how bad it gets. it's worth fighting for. and she fought for it!

why shouldn't you?"

dead sis's boyfriend pauses for a while and stares woman down as she absorbs all that he's said...and he continued, "still wish you were dead?"

THE END.

oh well - that's it.

signing off, the common jack amongst the kings and queens...