A Train Running Through My Mind.

What happens with you when you have a deluge of thoughts / concerns running through your mind? I guess what ensues are all the standard symptoms:

1. Can't sleep.
2. Disconcerted feeling in your head like a headache that just won't go away.
3. Become boring / uninteresting / moody company
4. So on and so forth.

Sometimes I look at the peers who are contented being where they are, happily ignorant of opportunities surrounding them and utterly at ease with who they are and how they will be. To put it a little crudely, they are like the Cave Men in Plato's Cave. All they see are their shadows on the wall and that is their only truth. When one of them figures out that all his life, he has actually only been seeing the shadows, would that make him happier than the guy who doesn't?

A more recent example would be The Matrix's RED PILL or BLUE PILL. 

Sometimes I really wish I was more of the Blue Pill guy. The guy who's happy just looking at the shadows. But alas, I'm not. It's like I'm doomed to walk down the 'realer' road all the time. Thus subjecting myself to all the 'real' pain involved.

Oh well. I'm just waffling. I been doing that a lot these days.

I'm out.

"They just don't understand me..."

I'll make this short.

You know  how people always say, "My Family just doesn't understand me." 
The way I figured it, that statement should be, 
"My Family just doesn't understand me the way I want to be understood."

My stance has always been this: your family will always know you in a way you will never begin to comprehend till the day you have a family of your own. Even then, some people just never figure that out.

But there are times, when you do feel like you're left out hanging on a lurch when it comes to family. That's undeniable. I've felt that way for a while now. Especially with my current career endeavours. For the first time in my life, when I try to consult anyone in my family about what I want to do or what I am doing, I see a truly blank expression or a idle glaze spread across their faces. I mean, I get the generation gap stuff, but I didn't think that would apply to my current path of career of start-ups etc.

Everytime I've tried to get some sort of input on an idea I have or just my overall plan - I usually get, "You don't have to explain yourself to me. As long as you know what you're doing..."

I guess that means I have to know what I'm doing then innit?