'everywhere' is a big space to get lost in.

here's a little about me:

i am a law student (2nd year and trying desperately to get through to my 3rd and final year).

i am a part time kickboxing instructor.

i love playing basketball. i play football / futsal (indoor soccer) quite often because all my good friends play. in addition to that, i also happen to play squash, badminton, snooker, pool, golf, volleyball, handball, fooseball ... i also used to be involved with athletics - i used to run and also high jump.
primarily i only play basketball, futsal, snooker and pool now. but every one of the games mentioned above are games i have been involved in on some form of a regular basis at one point in time.

i like to write. which is one of the reasons i started this blog actually. anyway, i don't know how i fell into this little hobby but the fact is - i did. i hope to have something worth publishing one day. but we'll see...
in lieu of this, i also like to read. admittedly, i'm not one to be seen raiding libraries or bookshops but i can appreciate the craziness of Catch-22 by Joseph Heller or the beauty of Shakespeare's Midsummer Night's Dream. i simply love the humour, wit and intelligence of writers like Douglas Adams (Hitchiker's Guide to the Galaxy - and i've read this book long before the movie came out), Terry Pratchett's Discworld series, and Neil Gaiman.
if you know me personally, you'd know that my all time favourite book is Good Omens by both Terry Pratchett and Neil Gaiman.

erm, i am also known to act on occasion. i am actively trying as hard as i possibly can to get involved with the local theater scene. succeeded 2 years ago. managed to get a part in a play which was staged for the public but i have been absent from the scene since then. it's difficult to find the time, and when there is time, it is tremendously difficult to get an acting gig (but that's a whole other story).

i love music. i picked up my guitar relatively late (only when i was 17) and have been struggling to catch up ever since. i'm not naturally inclined musically but i love it so much - that doesn't deter me. i learn to play as many songs as i am capable of. i'm getting better - slowly but surely. and as a result, i've been trying to write songs of my own ever since i got my guitar too - but only lately i find that i have some stuff worth attempting to put out to the public. so we'll see how that goes.

i also like to dance. i used to perform in all kinds of functions - anywhere i could get involved. it could have been a friend's church thing or a school thing or even just a little house party. i even took ballroom dancing with junoesque. i believe it lasted for a few months as well. and from what i've been told - for a chinese dude, i got some skillz. haha.

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so, i'm involved in so many things that aren't really related to one another - i was once told by a close friend that i seem to be leading several different lives. how is it possible to mesh it all together? i used to think it was very do-able. of course, at the time i also believed that i am a person who was larger than life. i needed to lead several different lives because one wasn't enough.

however, reality has kicked me in the balls and i now realise that there is no way to lead all these lives without losing out in one or the other. and i am feeling the burn from the failures i've brought upon myself.

i think when i was younger - i actually thought that the more i could do - the better i'd be. so i did everything. as you can see from the above - i did try to do everything. that is why i call myself the commonjack ie 'jack of all trades but master of none'. or in my previous blog - i used to be dilettante - (because i dabble in everything).

thus, here i am, able to do so many things, not really sure what i wanna do. lost and confused with no real or tangible visions to really focus on.

i may be 'everywhere' but 'everywhere' is a big space to get lost in. and i think i'm lost.