alone.

this is an extension of 'the trick is...'

the trick is 'not to forget how to be with other people'.

i think i've lost sight of that.

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in lieu of that, it seems i'm getting better at being alone. it wasn't as hard as i thought it'd be. all i had to do was not call people i didn't really want to call. and since all the people i really wanted to hang with are either busy with work most of the time or out of the country or didn't really wanna hang with me - i ended up almost not calling anyone at all.

let's view the *damage:-

it didn't improve my sleeping habits, i still stayed awake till the wee hours in the morning and only waking up at 10am, 11am or 12pm - sometimes even sleeping right through to 1 or 2 pm. which is actually something i wanted to change.

i grew accustomed to locking myself up in my room. cutting contact with people who are in the house even (*that is - when there's anyone at home to cut myself from lah ... which is not a common occurrence a majority of the time). but that being the case, i stopped myself from watching too much tv and got down to do more writing. but even then - the writing seems to be going *slower than i would like.

i really can't think of anything else. i guess the important question would be, "am i a stronger person now?" - which was the primary intention of the whole exercise ie to 'master the art of being alone so that i wouldn't need to depend on anyone else'.

it feels like a loaded question. and the only fair answer i can come up with currently is "i don't know".



my b'day is coming up - this is not a good frame of mind to celebrate in - better snap out of it.

later then.