i've had lots of friends leave. i've had lots of significant people leave me too. i have a beef against the idea of leaving the country to further ones studies. how come i never get to be the one who goes away? but i digress.

the real point of this entry is to say how surprised i was to feel the way i felt when my good friend - since we were 15 years old - had to leave for the States. i worry about the bugger.

i knew he was going. but i guess i never really thought that it could make me sad. as i said earlier in this post. i've had many important people leave me...and i've wept and felt a sharp pain before...but i've learnt to cope with it better the more i experienced it.

that's why i was starting to feel a little baffled when i started to 'feel' something once i arrived at the airport. waiting for the fella and the rest of the entourage to arrive. i realised i didn't know what to say ... i didn't know how to react to the feeling.

i admit, i haven't been hanging out with the 'guys' much lately. the 4 of us. and i guess, 'G' was always the anchor. and just a few days ago...he left. because he's always been so accessible to all of us...i guess ishould have known that we'd all be affected when he left.

i remember during my form 6 years...and even during my 1st 2 years of college. when i felt like playing hookie...the only guy who was always 'on call' would be G. a guy i'm proud to call my brother as i call the other 2 guys. G is a guy who says it as it is. no complications. you ask a question, he gives you an answer ... simply because sometimes it is just that easy. he don't ask for much. he don't need a helluva a lot. and he gives whatever he can. and he couldn't care less what people in general think...as long as he does what he thinks is right...

after all ... "why make things so complicated for? i is do whatever it is i think is right lah..." *grin.

gambling sessions will never be the same bro! :)

the anchor has left. and i'm feeling more estranged from "the guys" than i've ever felt in my entire life. but i guess that's just the way it goes sometimes.

it'll work out at some point.

take care in the states G...if you ever read this.

signing off...the Commonjack.